Angry

Ryan does not have a suit i dont even know where you buy fat people stuff and he has no gf to dance with he went to homecoming and he never got to travel and has zero rewards and trophies. He doesnt even make it to school its just the beginning of the year and today is the 4th day he overslept and didnt go and he only goes to school 5 hrs a day. He wont even help clean around the house he leaves clothes and dishes and trash in his room and locks himself in here with his computer. He drops his ap programming class so he can take music because he cant do the work. He rather watch this nigga on youtube then study. He hardly even plays his guitar. Hes supposed to write a college essay and hasnt and its overdue and each day its due he misses school. He is a failure.

Sunday

Well the season is changing and i went to work for about 3 and half hours lots of stuff going on downtown. Came home had to do alot of cleaning this place a mess. Got those peppers,tomatoes, and green beans out the garden pulled some grass out not sure how much longer it will last but im streching it. Washing dishes and clothes oh what fun this is the only time i get to sit and drink is when im at home. Oh i finally got all my buttons of my teeth they look good with my new plastic. Yawn im going to hit the psn and just chill.

Hi world

It's been a long time since i wrote anything at all. Still i feel nothing has changed the silence grows stronger day by day. My favorite band linkin park lead singer dies just like everyone else in my life has either left or faded away. I feel so unappreciated uber says people are saying im being racist and yet i been increasing my 5 stars but the overall number keeps decreasing even when im not using the app. Im sick of technology glitching and profiling me to be a bad person when mostly im a mute. So now i dont even talk anymore. It feels like the world is pushing me to be as silent as the people are at home. So here i am again with text the only way i can speak but still hoping that even my words here dont bring me down. The problem with being quite is that its very hard to do i need some form of commuincation even if its to myself and no one ever reads me. I can write a journal and let out thoughts once again who knows maybe later it'll make me see more clearly or something else.