I remain broken

I feel like I'll never be able to see you again. I'm have to get used to a life without you forever. It hurts that we couldn't have been friends it's like I've tired but I just don't know how to start; maybe I'm not met to live in this life. I just remain heartbroken. I miss you and the thoughts of what could have been, but you won't be friend me. I'm not worthy enough of this stuff. I just keep surviving but not fully living life. I have no purpose and empty shell I remain. There isn't a single day that passes by that I don't think about you, but then I see that damn ring you have on your hand and it crippled me. I should have known God forsaken me. I'm doomed to walk this earth alone. I'll never be truly happy it's not my destiny. I'm not even with you all my hopes and dreams have been destroyed. This isn't how I wanted it to be. I wanted to be closer to you but it just seems I'm falling even further away. I cry alot. It's like now all I do is live in a doomsday. This isn't how I planned it this isn't living the dream. Now all I can do is suffer. You used to be everything to me. Everything I could ever hope for love but now your just nothing. I know that it's over for me anything that could have given me purpose in life is now gone. I used to think I could live out a fantasy, but now when I wake up I realize thats all it ever was. I am a demon and I am not allowed to experience anything good. All the light has been stolen from me. I'm stuck in the silence forever and time won't change me. I'm just rotting away I'm waste no one cares about. This is my happy nothing ever after.