missing the point

There's so much I'm going to miss out on. The emptiness will be the only thing that will be an constant remains. I give up today I promise to never open my heart again. I'm told to learn to respect boundaries what does it mean. Never feel anything ever again. To just watch everyone else in life be happy. While I remain broken. Just remain non existent. My time and age is wasting away anyhow so why should I even care. Maybe I should just bury myself in a fantasy of the afterlife. In another life where I could have blossomed with love and happiness where we could be a family. Where we can share things we enjoy together. I guess it'll always remain a dream of doing things we love together unless there is some other world I need to enter to find that. I also think it could be the simplist of things no matter how big or small. I wish I could find that alignment in the stars. Instead of what it could be.. it should be what should be... I hate this one-sided feeling. It's like saying know your place. Makes me feel so trapped. I wish you had the time to care. I wish I could have given you the world. I wish I had that connection. I wish I could have shared more information, but there's always that terrible non realistic thing in the way. And you can't tell me that love doesn't fix problems I think it could. I just haven't been able too. Oh I get what boundaries means now just remember stuck in the fan zone. Not the friends zone not the love zone just the damn fan zone. Wow that hurts okay so goodbye humanity. 

I search for how to heal broken

To heal a broken heart, it's important to allow yourself to grieve, acknowledge your emotions, practice self-care, seek support from loved ones, and give yourself time to heal, while also focusing on activities that bring you joy and help you reconnect with your own needs and passions; consider reaching out to a therapist if the pain is overwhelming. Key steps to healing a broken heart:

Acknowledge your pain: Don't try to suppress your emotions, allow yourself to feel sadness, anger, and other feelings that arise. 
Give yourself time to grieve: Understand that healing takes time, and don't rush the process. 
Seek support: Talk to trusted friends, family members, or a therapist about how you're feeling. 
Practice self-care: Prioritize healthy habits like good sleep, nutritious eating, regular exercise, and relaxation techniques. 
Limit contact with your ex: Minimize contact with your former partner to allow for healing. 
Focus on positive activities: Engage in hobbies, interests, and social activities that bring you joy. 
Reflect on your experience: Learn from the relationship and identify areas for personal growth. 
Be kind to yourself: Practice self-compassion and avoid self-blame. 
Journaling: Writing down your thoughts and feelings can help process emotions. 
Mindfulness practices: Meditation and deep breathing can help manage stress and anxiety. When to seek professional help:

If your sadness is overwhelming or interferes with daily life 
If you experience significant changes in appetite or sleep patterns 
If you have thoughts of self-harm or suicidal ideation
If you struggle to cope with your emotions on your own