march15

I'm very upset how long will it take? I'm sick and tired of growing old here without any beginning and it's like I'm always left on the back burner. I'm so sick and tired of waiting for my turn. So today in school the guest was from a company I've tired to get into for the past year, but it's like I'm always playing the waiting game. I'm also sick of going to school and watching other students younger then I get a start or as they say foot in the door. Then they All disappear. All I got was a business card. I got so angry because I know when I go back home it's just endless silence again. I did however got to throw in there I'll take any position. Then I thought too myself yeah I'm that tired and desperate. This other student wouldn't shut up about his new job and I was getting mad cause I'm trying to fix myself. Then the damn teacher wouldn't shut up. It's like I'm always pushed aside to wait enternity. And all this happened after class when I thought I'd have a moment to speak but of course they they are cutting me out again. I'm feeling so low again and I started crying.