myself with myself

Ive accepted myself for who I am. I am still lost and broken when it comes to receiving your kindness. I haven't found it. I get terrified at the thought of it, but its all I ever wanted or needed. I will not beg for it. I will let it find me and I will know when its time. If not than I will have accepted it for what it is and not let it take me into a dark place. I will have faith in god that change will happen and when it does it will be full of all the beauty I've lived without for so long. Im not going to let my hunger for anything overcome my need for happiness. Not even an army of people can tell me its me and there's something wrong with me because I can feel and see the truth to all things. Even if its leaves me in silence alone in the dark for many years I still carry on. I have always and still believe in myself because it has never failed me never left me alone. I am alone but at least I know who I am. I know I don't have to change for anyone and I will be accepted for what I am. If not like I said before I've grown comfortable with the silence and emptiness. I never let it consume me. Even when I've lost all humanity in the end I still have myself. I will not go insane no matter how far off the edge you push me.