evil rises

You know who you are and it's the 2nd holiday and still it's been nothing but silence. Where my textbox? It's okay though I'll be okay. What really bothers me though. I can't stand people especially my family. I'm sick of the damn cigarettes. Why do I always get stuck with the broken sick and heavy smokers. I'm sick of her always making a mess smelling like shit and smoking all the damn time she reminds me of someone else. She don't listen she don't even take care of herself. All she does is cough all day everyday. Then she gets on my nerves with shit like I'd like to get myself this but it's too high but yet you would do it for your kids and grandkids why not do it for yourself. I can't wait until rachel comes over just so she can break all her damn cigarettes. All she does is sit around the house smoking and talking about I hope we get simulus money soon and then gets on her phone trying to get money off playing games. I'm sick of her shit. Then I said I was would order something this weekend and she's like she's pay half as many times as I ordered shit and her freeloading ass ate it without paying and you only offer half. Oh yeah wait she's thinking she going to stay here she need to go back to her kids. I wish I never even had a heart enough to tell her she didn't need to pay me anything not with how she's been lately. Also she know how I feel about being taken advantage of I'll get evil and say and do some really hurtful shit. But in all honesty I'm just tired of of family they are always sick one-way or another. I just want god to surround me with clean, active, beautiful, happy, healthy successful people. God please stop sending me the broken people in my family they only make me turn evil in the end. Yep see I was right she ended up burning holes in my carpet after I told her several times about those damn cigarettes. Plus I got wood broken in the hallway where she knocked the sword off the wall. I'm sick of people can't wait to be alone again. It costs me too much to repair things.