sad at home

Monday Sept 13 2021, I come home from blue ridge rock festival and spray the car off then look in at the chickens gave them water and my plants. Ryan tells me he went to the beach. I go into the house and see stuff all over floor a mess and the trash can is overflowing. I got mad called Ryan, Ryan, Ryan over and over no response then I punched him on his arm because I was mad. He says I don't need to vailaied you everytime you call my name. He decides to get up and charge at me and I move out the way and he ends up breaking two of his teeth out on the chair he fell on. He kept saying very mean things too me again this has been going on for far too long. I start crying. Before I got home I dropped off dad and moms chandler is broken and she don't know how it happened and dad's car has a flat tire. My feet and body hurt and everyone is upset. He calls to make a dentist appointment but he has no job and only state insurance. There's still dishes in the sink. He doesn't contribute to the household. I keep telling him to find an online job because I'm going to work a seasonal job soon and I can't baby him and work and do everything all on my own. He needs to get his own car. I told him why can't you find a remote job aren't they still out there cause of covid and he is too lazy too look. I'm tired of being the only person in this house that has to do everything and has to fight with him to get him off his computer to do something else. And I'm sick of the verbal abuse I've been receiving. I've been trying so hard to become a better person take care of the house, family, money, etc. It's too much for one person and then I'm verbally abused and told I'm the one with the problem. Mostly I feel like I have to sit in silence because Everytime I speak when I do get a response he says negative and hurtful things. Plus my parents do those things too. I feel like I need speech therapy because I can't even speak. It's like if I do I'm not heard or I'm a cunt or a terrible person or he doesn't have to be a carbon copy of me he said. Then he says he doesn't trust my advice. I tell him things like to improve your health clean your feet or get a online job or go-to school or stop eatting so much food. He's 21 and overweight and very nasty to me. I told him we need a therapist and he just says no. Then he says getting a job won't pay enough for him to get his own place. Even if he did do that he still have to clean up after himself. So I'm back to home is where the hell is.