last prayer to godzside

Calling out to the heavens waiting for an experience as I travel into the unknown I carry the weight of loosing. Searching for a realtionship a magic moment in time where it continues I to the next day.. I have this erge to blossom because I've never been given growth. I wanna lift the veil from my eyes show me something new. Can I put you into my sights my moments in time like a moving picture frame. I'm calling out to the heavens again calling out for progress, change, enlightenment. End my suffering kill the silence give me hope for the future. Save my soul help me make my dreams a reality. I call upon the heavens where it's all inside my head it's a dream that's where I find you. I've become a ghost even to myself. I've been communicating with the heavens again and the gods are not responding, but then again they did said I am God. I have choices but I can't do them on my own alone. I need access to a schedule, time, space, place, and people. Without this I drift right back into that black hole of silence never ending. Where are you it's like I'm going death and blind at the same time. I'm calling out to the heavens and I need to know what is this message I'm supposed to receive? Who am I, where am I going, will the daily silence ever end? As day turns into night and the hands of time change I'll be right here still waiting for my beginning with you. I feel so disconnected from my own humanity please save me. Let me live with what I'm living without.