God please unbreak me

Help me get over my fears and take control of my life and get paid for being a good person and doing the right things and being rewarded for them. I'm so sick and tired of living my life in the darkness with the evil. I'm so tired of this it needs to change now. This is why I always say money is the root to all evil. Because my whole life for me to obtain money I would have to lie and and I'm sick of it. I had been paid money from death, lies, plagues, etc. I'm tired of this I just want to be honest and earn it. God help me overcome my fears. I want to feel like I'm worthy not worthless. I want to feel like I've earned it. I want to have confidence to be a good honest person. Right now the state is saying the plague isn't paying out unless you get a job I really want to but I keep finding myself crying and hyperventilating with stress over trying to answer questions. I've struggled with this for a very long time. When I was driving for Uber I felt like I was getting paid for doing something good but then I'm not even sure why they fired me. They did have my account mixed up with someone else they said but then after that error was corrected they still fired me I asked them to email a report why I got fired I never got it. I guess people didn't like me because I think I ended with a 4.4 when the app makes u stay a 4.5 stars. When I worked at Toby's and they told me not to come back after one day. I felt like I got paid for just climbing into small dark spaces to use a wrench. I felt like I was unprotected from climbing the ladder if I fell I had no harness. I felt like I didn't have enough experience to do anything on my own and I just was a helper of someone else. I don't even know my own value or how I can actually do something and be paid for doing something good. Well I guess I could say I've done some volunteering in the past. The only reason why I like volunteering over asking for payments is because I always felt like I'd be in denial like I'm not worthy of doing something and being rewarded. So I struggle really hard trying to get myself out there to go on an interview I'm not sure how to fix this or get help. Remember before covid I was grub hubbing and I was suspended for forgetting to get the drink from taco bell. I never contacted the company because I was afarid to talk to a human, so I just went back to school instead.