thursday 2021

Went to store with mom then made salads. Put some of the netting on the chicken coop but I couldn't finish because I ran outta time it got dark. Ryan tried to help for two minutes then walks away. Hes never learned how to do anything in life besideale my life miserable. I can't try to teach him anything because he always gives up after two minutes. I'm very depressed now back to crying. I do it all on my own by myself. Hell be 21 this year with no future but to get fat. I don't like him very much. Why won't he develop into man? He won't grow up. Which reminds me all I've ever gained for family is verbal abuse. Also everytime I want to try something new I'm called mean names. I told him I already used some ties on one side just continue it to the other instead he just did it all wrong with two ties and quit. It hurts so much how come I'm the only person in my family who will do these things and everything else is just an attitude or I'm speaking to myself? It won't change. I can change everything on my own but it's life damaging. I might as well be living alone. Since I do everything for myself by myself anyhow. I don't like negative attitudes. I try to be light but I'm out numbered. Now the silence begins.