oct 14

Still awaiting for two more abcesses to pop. Took a bath this morning. Ate egg sandwiches which I thought was the cure for this virus but yet it's still here. Drink some stash mango tea and some some bud while continuing to use wash cloths between my underwear and my underarm pit. What a fun life it never ends this is my daily. I stopped smoking cigarettes it didn't cure me. I wish I would die so it would be to end. There's no relief from this there's not one single day I don't have swores on me. It feels better when it pops but that doesn't mean it ever heals. My skin never heals I'd show you but then they block and delete my account. I'd show God but you know he's not watching. And it's against the law to walk outside naked in the public or unless maybe I should make a trip to a nude beach would they give me good service or a cure? maybe that's where I need to go instead of the doctors all the time I should goto nude a beach. Will they ingore me there or fix my virus? It's either that or just kill me because. So sick and tired of living like this it never changes. I'm tired of hiding it. I'm sick of living with it. I need CHANGE. For now I'm just sitting here at home with the tv on while I'm dying inside. I'm depressed again. Why would I want to live? They took away any hope for tomorrow they took away any rights I'm aware or unaware of it gone. I'm not allow to protect myself. They took away my chance of security, weapons, love, family, and money. So what's the point why should I want to continue? I really don't see any reason. Still here I am waiting for it to change. I started looking at homes in Vermont online today because the internet says that's the healthist place to live in the USA. I guess I'll just sit here and wait to heal so I can go on a journey someplace new or die here which ever occurs first.