without you

It hurts like hell. When I text you never reply. I asked you several years ago to be my friend, but friendship is something no man would ever give me. In my awaking world I see that I was never worthy of anything. I died inside a little more with each passing day. Those days turn into long years. I don't know how to fix this? How do I begin something I could never start? All I ever wanted was an experience, a memory, a new chapter. I still remain frozen in time. Like a time capsule just waiting for something real to begin. I'm so sick of writing about emptiness and denial. I just wanted to live live life and be happy, but not alone. I needed a shared experience. I wanted a family I needed you for that, but you left me hanging alone in this empty void. I miss you but you never existed in the first place. Now I'm just empty and heartless. All my hopes and dreams remain broken.