is the world ending?

People are going nuts all over the place killing and stealing because of bad cops. My family is dying. Virus is still out there. So much for new beginnings it looks like I'm going to be stuck here all summer. Probably just end up dying here alone very sad. All I do is ingore all the violence in the world and pretend that nothing is happening but I can't live life trapped here in this hellish world like this. I can't even sleep right I have nightmares. I pretend everything is okay and that I'm okay on the outside but on the inside I can't take it anymore. I just can't take anymore of this God needs to bring more hope for tomorrow just like he allowed people to go space. I'm so tired of living life in fear and isolation something needs to change now. Also I'm not ready to die I still haven't found myself or my soulmate. There's so much in life I haven't gotten to experience. I will continue to live in my bubble or my fairytale Dreamland until things get better. Will it ever get better? I need hope so.