May 13 2023

I just discovered how challenging it can be to rescue people from the water. After the first day of training my body is very swore and I know I need more practice. Tomorrow I go back for another whole day of training. There is a lot to this some of it is scary. I'm trying my best to hang in there. I wish I was younger most of the people doing this are really young I feel like I don't have the same energy as them. I guess I'm getting old. I hope my age doesn't come back on me as a bad thing. I'm starting to think I'm a bit retarded and no one has properly diagnosed me. Where did all my wasted years go I wonder? Or maybe I'm just an unknown trama vitcum in recovery without the support and I just made myself better without assistance. My knees and feet hurt. I slept earlier woke up and now ready to go back to sleep. I think they really need to pay these lifeguards more money they are doing so much for so little compared to your retail workers etc. I also think they should have more training divided between several days or months instead of fast pacing everything together into 2 days for physically training. The instructor says that they come to your job site to test your skills to keep you sharp. I guess I'll find out more about that later. I still feel like I need more time spreaded across more days to keep practicing.