socail functionalism

    First off I like to start by I'm not very good at expressioning my words vocaily. I'm better at taking time to think and write down my words when communicating with others. Then later I can communicate verbally without issues.  I've had a meeting with two of my teachers recently Seth and I call him that because he's a funny easy going type of guy everyone likes him; and then there's Mr.P or should I call him Prof.P? I dunno, but he's the real Mr. M if you get what I mean by saying mean. He thinks I'm not listening to him he just wants to make everything hard on me. I will not fear him I already know I'm good at capturing content with a video camera I just need to spend more time learning isadora and how to project content. He is allowing me to ulitize tools there's qlabs and a hippo. Mr.P uses a learning style that is open to obtaining information not from one source, but many sources which is what I love about the Mr.M. Although at the meeting he's telling me that I'm not getting it but honestly he is teaching me how to be well rounded kind of like the jack of all trades. He's very smart, but I don't know why he hates me so much. Now as for Mr. Funny man Seth he's telling me there's no structure rubric to tech troublingshooting. Which clearly shows because I shouldn't be able to jump from basic to troubleshooting without laying down the fundamentals of structure. He doesn't trust me and I don't trust him we are on the same page. I feel like I've been doing alot more of socail structures which is apart of my degree program and I'm still working on this. I've been very ill lately with my heels, leg, and hands have been broke out for two months and I'm starting to improve and am ready to make a change. I felt like these things was holding me back in life like he was helping me by giving me a break from actually doing but it's not that at all. He's telling me its an structural issue as to why he hasn't put me on the grand ma board, or qlabs, etc. Then he says to me thats its not that that it is "me". Then Mr.P says I should just goto another place where I can learn with more tools and resources etc. and to just get an general education degree here. I don't really agree with this. I feel like I need to get the basics of entertainment tech here so I can branch off like I keep telling them. I need to travel aboard and also get into a disney studio at some point in life. I do have a blueprint or plan in my life that I am putting into play I just gotta get the basics to have the confientence to surpass this setting in life. I've been feeling alot of personal as well as socail inequality in real life and school life that makes me feel discriminated against, but I will follow this structure of the degree program until I can make a change that will allow me to earn trust and improvement. Also, if later that course doesn't allow me to  do the things I know I should be accessing such as the theather boards then I have my answer. Apparently, I have a long road ahead of me. Which someday I'll be on when I get there. For now I can just hope that I can get the tools and resources I need to do the things I require for all structure to continue. I'm going to do everything asked of me and try my best whether you like it or not. I willnot let anyone tell me that I can't do this or that I will always find one way or another to improve myself image in a positive global scale someday. I will take the basics of the things I learned here and leave with them this is my beginning my "beginners mind". Life is like legos and I'm building blocks the basics of life to acheieve value and ones' self worth. My journey now begins...  

Christina Nyaburi