tired of typing

So I spent a whole day without any communication at all. But I do that just about everyday don't I? Yep. Soon I wont be able to form a whole sentence. Maybe I should just type my whole life way. This is hell there's no heaven for me in the end I wasn't even happy I'm earth. Why is it I know know sad words? Because I am being punished again. Everyday when I wake up I ponder why am I here and why won't I change. I'm so sick of being broken. I'm so tired of the broken. I just have to move far away from this ghost town. I gotta get myself together and leave this place or I'll just remand the same or worst. So why haven't I started yet? Maybe because I'm scared that something horrible will happen like I hire the wrong people and get hurt? But I can't keep letting these people ruin me. Need more information. Also need to do something else instead of this never ending circle of hell break the cycle. Start new you said it over and over stop typing it and just do it already. Find the movation to get unstuck. Screw this dying society find one that's not suffering. Also need to find better connections in life when it comes to family. I'm so tired of it all. I just want to move far away with a great job with awesome new people and my own damn family. I'm sick of being sick I'm sick of being here doing the same thing with the same people crying sadness crying. I can't do this no more God help me.