stressed out

Why am I still here? What is my purpose? Everyday is a battle that I just can't win. I'm searching for the light in me, but it's just so hard when all you see is the darkness. I used to think that if I prayed to God that things would get better that life would improve. I used to think if I just kept going to school, church, and seeking employment that I would find happiness within myself and that someday I'll find someone to love me, but lately I feel like I've lost everything. The whole world is dying. I feel really stressed out because I've lost everything that was supposed to make me better. Now I just stay at home everyday dreaming of a better life. I want to have a better life I need to change. Why does it have to be so hard? Why can't I find the help I need to succeed? Where is my savior? There's so much I haven't done yet. I want a new beginning. A new story to tell something that brings me happiness. I wanted to explore the unknown. I wanted to adventure out of my own bubble into a new place. I was better before but now I'm just tired of feeling like I have no future. It's like I'm constantly waiting for covid to end so I can get back to my struggle of self improvement. It just stressed me out so much. At least I can write about how I feel, but I really want to change things. I want to enjoy being here. God please help me find away to enjoy this life. Help me to not feel so much stress. Help me find away to feel better and be better. Help me start again.