fanastyland

Time to dream again to believe in something. One of my fanastys is to know what it feels like to be human. To feel something that is so easy and simple to others but I still haven't experienced, yet. This could be a very long list. Start simple pleasures iny fanastyland. You'd say it's okay I've never done this either and we walk around holding hands talking about what makes life great and what we dream about. I'd probably say something like I'm scared because the fear doesn't allow me to be myself. You'd pick a flower for me and stare into my eyes. That's the time when I'll be the most nervous. You place it behind my ear or in my hair. I feel like a character out of a storybook. That's when you lean in closer and you kiss me. I wonder what it would feel like to have that kind of human emotion. I'm not sure how I would react or feel. Would I even do it right? I'm not sure I've tried french kissing myself but it doesn't seem to work. It's like I don't know how to do these things. Is there a method to it? Am I supposed to move in and out or around in a circle or all the above? How do you even? Or do you suck tongue? I don't even know how to do it wow my nervous is kicking in again. Am I supposed to have my eyes open or closed? What if you don't like how I kiss? Or Is it going to be magical? Is it okay to dream about this? Can I make it a reality?