August 21,2023

Tomorrow Im going to try to get back into school along with my new work. Today I'm trying to straighten out some over these bills. My stomach is killing me. I'm praying for myself to get better. Cried a few times. Just like savage hands said I don't wanna love no more. Just as I expected nothing will ever change for me. I'll just keep doing the same things over and over again. I am the heartless the soulless and always will be the broken. I finally faced my fears today and the rejection was real. He told me he's unavailable. All my hopes and dreams like I've said over and over again destroyed. Thanks for awakening me to always being the failure. The unwanted unloved and valueless. I can't even live in fantasyland no more. All I can do is hope I don't get rejected tomorrow.