it's takes a five

It takes 5 friends it's what most people would say 5 people or even four people to make build form something well you never see that one person who they say it takes one to make a change. I don't think so what I see is everything in life takes the life help from others. I don't see any light given to world without it. It's all about teamwork. There is no "I" in team as they say. It takes more then one to make things happen. You wanna build a bridge then have a team. You wanna create a band then have a team, You wanna build a home then have a team, even McDonald's workers are a team, See where I'm going with this. One person in isolation can't have achievements without the help from others. I'm so sick and tired of the weight of the world on my shoulders because God didn't provide me with a team. I just feel so disconnected from life. It's too hard to find a team. Always waiting searching hoping praying looking for something I can't seem to find. Have I gone mad yes I have but Im still hopeful even after a decade of solitude. At the sametime I have fear fear of what if I find a team to belong to and u don't fit in or I get rejected what then? How will I break this isolation? My dream my whole life was to be apart of a team to be apart of a family not to live isolation and still I seek.....waiting for that connection and sense of belonging to make this life worthwhile. I'm still searching for teamwork, a best friend, an realtionship, and a purpose. So far that's the only thing I can't seem to obtain in this lifetime. I try so hard to not let it bring me down. I won't let it break me but still it haunts me all the time.