thoughts

Only one outnumbered by many wishing I didn't have the oxygen to breath there's too much space in this empty void trapped in limbo of yesterday I can't find tomorrow still wishing upon a star seeking for a shed of light some shape of worth. Still I remain the same every second min hour day year all it's ever been all it's ever remained a text a page a journal of pain broken misery why can't I find just one sunshine worthy pharse. Still sitting at the starting line not sure how to even begin. It's like I'm frozen and there's nothing that can thaw me out of this. Hidden inside my fears disconnected from the vision of life I sat out to live. Still searching running for hope luck belief. Still I have no voice just endless silence. I don't wanna be human no more because if humanity means having emotions then I'm frozen. The pain runs too deep inside my veins. Where's the microscope so I can find the tiny particles that you forgot to explore. Maybe I should just blackout and stop breathing.