why even bother

Everything in life is just a waste of time anyways nothing will ever change. I'm sick of having to do everything on my damn own I can't even share anything who is supposed to be around for me? no your supposed to cheer your own damn self up you will forever be broken damaged and incomplete without a beginning nothing ever changes it all remains the same you know why your mad because no one will ever want to do anything that would make you happy. There is no man out there who will take the time to make you happy. I should change my name from christina to misery or crybaby. And no one knows how long Ive been drowning in tears every single night. I can't even rest in peace. I might as well just start making up a pretend life inside this journal since no one else gives a shit about me.